Yeah, it’s actually been a rough year for me. I’ve been doing that a lot, and I think it just kind of happens against my better judgement a lot of the time. It’s not easy, you know? Improvement is always incremental and sometimes that makes me forget that I AM improving. It’s all about that good start, keeping the routine going and not looking down. I don’t know, I think that, in a highly capitalised society like ours, that I could take a lot of shortcuts to my truth, but I’d probably lose some friends doing it. I have, like, thousands of ways of expressing myself but only about seven or eight of those are accepted by mainstream society. This results in me taking months to do what I should have been able to do in weeks and all the while, you guessed it, I keep doing that thing without meaning to. Staying in the fight isn’t always easy and a lot of the time, if I’m being really honest, I just want to walk away and accept the version of me I’m trying to change, which is CRAZY. This is what the system does to us, you know? I don’t want to be one of those guys where when I’m fifty I’m sitting on my bed and feeling like it all just slipped through my fingers. But when I’m in the fight my brain actually tries to tell me that that’s okay. And sometimes I wonder that it is. Like we’ve all been sold a pseudohappiness and that the answer really lay in ourselves all along and all we had to do is stop trying so hard. I don’t know man. You seem like a cool guy. DM me if you want to talk?