** Warning this is not for anyone who isn’t sappy I am very much aware what is going on and I apologise for being in love, love ye all so much and these are worrying times and I wish ye all the best.
Hey guys,
Don’t even know why I am writing this as a letter. I am so upset about what is going on at the moment (as if everyone) it’s fucked everyone over. I apologise if I come across selfish in anyways in this post. I have been dealing with mental health issues for years and Iv even put a few posts up here about it and this whole situation has made my anxiety go absolutely crazy I haven’t slept in 4 days.
I am a thirty-year-old man – it’s actually difficult to even admit that to myself I am this age, who has been living in Sharjah (outside Dubai) the past two years teaching English. It took me a few extra years to cop on and get out of the mammy’s home because of mental health issues and being basically a retard – if you want me to get into that then please ask. I have been on “ok” money, nothing near better than home but I couldn’t get a permanent job at home so decided to come out here to escape the drink and the drugs problems that I was challenging at home. Probably one of the best decisions of my life or else I was facing a slippery slope. I come from a troubled background and eventually broke out of it with a lot of support and will power. I have been trying to save up the past two years, but I have wasted a lot of money in the past two weeks because of cancellations and what is going on.
I have been living here for the past two years. I have this girlfriend for the last 9 years. She has supported me so much it is unbelievable. Without her, I don’t know where I would be. So, for the last two years, we have been living apart, she’s a nurse at home in Ireland but decided to take a chance over here and look for a job. She has been here the last three months looking but nothing has come up yet, I have been supporting her. She has been doing Visa runs to Oman every month to get it renewed but we found out yesterday the borders are closed. So she has to leave the country.
I was meaning to get engaged in a lovely hotel in Dubai on the 22nd (her 30th) but I had to take my Easter holidays two weeks earlier due to the circumstances here, so I had to cancel that to go home which she wanted. Then I changed our flights to go home to Ireland and stop in Amsterdam for two nights which I then planned to get engaged even though we were gonna go there, after the engagement to celebrate for a few days but I was told if I leave the country I could be quarantined and left without a months pay. So I really was in a pickle in what to do. We decided to stay. She now is leaving on the 23rd to go back home, after all what has happened. All my plans have gone out the window.
I know there is much more going on at this moment and I should not be worried about marriage, but this girl means everything to me I have been with her 9 years now and just want to marry her, settle down and have a family, but life is making it difficult, and I do want our engagement to be special because she deserves it. We have been cooped up like ye all for the past 3 days. The only thing that has kept her sane is watching repeats of Graham Norton, Reeling in the years and Fr. Ted. It’s now half 5 in the morning and I am pissed as a fart writing this as a claim for sympathy and some support, but I saw a lad from 9 years ago getting engaged to Graham Norton from the red seat. If anyone has any connections in anyways can ye show them this? I know this might not mean anything to ye or to him at the moment but at least I tried, there may be many spelling and grammar mistakes here (I am very drunk and it’s now nearly 6 in the morning here), I sent a big long sappy message to their own email too…
I hope everyone is keeping safe at home and please to be careful. I miss Ireland so much and wish I the two of us were just at home now with our families.
Kind regards