Why am i so fucking pathethic i cant understand why do i gotta do so many stupid shit. I dont even have the balls to post this on my real account so i made this stupid throaway and got enough fucking karma from an aww post so I can post this here.

Why am i so touch deprived that i get fucking horny from animations seriosly i dont feel good just thinking about it its so pathethic. Why do they gotta sexualize every single thing. Why does sex sell so much this days? I felt so ashamed of my own skin when 1 dude went to the toilet and had to move through me, i had to quickly zip my pants up. Why cannot i control myself, why even if i jack it off beforehand in home i still get urges to feel touched which make me do stupid shit like this in public. Sweating, paranoid, constantly looking around to see if anyone is paying me attention in the cinema so i dont get caught.

Honestly if there was a way to turn myself asexual, I would fucking do it in a heart beat

I dont know how to tag this post as a Rant and im not even sure if it is one but fuck it, cant get more ashamed than this already…