I was lurking and I saw a post that was similar to what happened to me a couple of weeks ago. I still haven’t asked my husband about it though.

Basically I was looking for a box of some of my arts and crafts supplies in the garage and I found a box that I thought had them in it but the box had a horse dildo in it. I was so shocked I dropped it on the ground and just stared for what felt like an eternity.

The box had some of my husband’s things in it and I don’t know why he would have bought this. I didn’t think he was gay at all or even liked anal play since we’ve never done any of that.

I’m ashamed to say that unlike the post I saw I haven’t had the courage to bring it up to my husband these past two weeks. I just shoved it into the box, had a bit of a cry and tried my best to pretend I never found it but honestly I don’t think I can. I see that giant horse cock every time I close my eyes and I’m just so confused and I’m not even neccesarily angry at him I just don’t understand why he has it, what he’s feeling or why he wouldn’t be comfortable discussing these things with me after all we’ve been through together.

I’ve tried to talk to him about it but I just can’t seem to find the words or even say it out loud. I honestly don’t know what to do and I’m haunted by it. I’m going to try to find the strength to talk to him about it as soon as possible it’s just so awkward and unexpected even though it’s been 2 weeks I’m still reeling from it and I can’t stop thinking about it.

Edit: We talked when he came home. He bought it purposely. He has used it multiple times and horse cocks turn him on. A lot apparently and he fantasizes about them. I’ll give him props for being honest with me finally but I honestly feel like I’m in shock. I wasn’t really expecting this and I don’t know how I feel especially since I remember him telling me years ago his dream was for us to own a ranch. I asked him if he had ever done anything with a real horse and he kept dodging the question so I decided not to press him further because I honestly don’t think I want to know.