My name is Tyler. I’ve been viewing pornography from the age of 11, and fell into a cycle of a minimum use 4+ times a day since then. I’m currently 24 years old. I didn’t have anyone else to share it with, so i’m proud and humbled to say that i’ve gotten my first 100% clean 7 day streak during this addiction as of today. I walked into my apartment today after work, after realizing it, I broke down. I fell on my floor and sobbed like I haven’t cried since I was a child. I feel like i’ve just let go of so much shame and trauma after this week i’ve locked away since I was a kid, and for once in my fucking life, I can tell myself in the mirror. I’m proud of myself.

Godspeed

 Edit:

Thank you all for all of the support and encouraging words. I can feel the love beyond measure <3. I didn’t expect this to blow up as it has. Some things ive done so far that have been helpful are the following so it doesnt get lost in the comments

* **Uninstall useless social media/Use filters -** (I kept messenger in my phone due to needing to speak to certain people, groups, etc. Try not to be around content/stimulating that causes urges when possible.
* **Avoid downtime as much as possible, but don’t expect to be a instant productivity machine overnight, give yourself a chance.**
* **Find an accountability partner/group**
* **You need to find a better Why -** I think this is my big one, I came to a conclusion before this week started that i’ve been viewing myself and this addiction imo wrong. My story changed from **”I want to quit porn” to “I’m trying to figure out how to have a better life”**. I sat down and asked myself “If I took care of myself properly for 3-5 years, how much could my life improve in x” This has caused me to also start to look around at basic human needs that I have been neglecting that are often overlooked. Horrible diet/starving self. Obsurd ammount of pot smoking with no outlet besides my computer screen. Hardly any physical exercise. Sometimes we should make sure we are giving ourselves a fighting chance and aren’t actively sabotaging our efforts in things us humans have control over but we choose to do easy things or neglect them entirely. Since I started, I have been doing 50 pushups a day, eating 3 meals, started a new hobby of minature painting and recently fallen in love with Dungeons and Dragons. My urges haven’t been as strong as i’ve been finding love in doing new things out of my normal comfort zone/routine.