I wish I could relate to this, but I haven’t met new people to begin with. I legitimately have not talked to any person in years aside from my mom. I suppose the weeb part is relatable given that I browse animemes as a form of escapism from my life, but when my eyes go off the screen I am miserable once again. So in my moment of freedom from the screen I make a declaration to break away from my routine. But no, here I am right this moment browsing memes for hours now. What the fuck is wrong with me? I don’t even watch much anime, why am I so preoccupied with looking at memes of Japanese cartoons? I was a failure in school. Back then, every year I sworn on my life to improve myself but no, still failed every time, because I was busy jacking it to nekos. Yet I’m too much of a pussy to off myself. Now I got no job and I spend all day and night doing the same thing every day. Just staring at my computer like a fucking tard. Last time I saw myself in the mirror I didn’t even recognize the depraved degenerate man staring at me. Perhaps that’s why I like looking at anime, because they are so bright and expressive and so simplified so I can project myself onto them since I have minimal social interaction or knowledge of how young adults actually behave. Year after year I tried to get out, “this year comes change” I tell myself. Haha it was this year 5 years ago. I’m more mentally broken than a girl in a old ugly bastard rape doujin. This is not a joke. This is an actual cry for help.