I really feel the best I’ve been probably since at least the 1st quarter this year, but it would make sense to say since last summer. Things seem to be literally “a level higher”. I still have all the same interesting effects, but it’s all very smooth. I can “not understand what I’m talking about” with my thoughts while trying to do something, but it’s very natural, not overarching. It’s a very simple thing that can be worked with. And in general, the way I described it is “a perfect form for a lot of things”. Everything is just smooth and obvious. Even the highly specific and about nothing notes I made while going to the bathroom allow me to write this. Things like feeling touch and taste more deeply but cold water feeling slightly numb in some way. All the interesting things, things that can actually be thought about. It’s like rediscovering a dimension, but also what that dimension allows. “It was there all along, all the things that were supposed to be broken”. And these phrases were supposed to be the entire messages for the last 2 months. I will have thoughts that became more and more structured, a system and a story about something. But then have no good way or reason to go about writing it out somewhere. Because it all comes down to just clever uses of old hysteria, sometimes from kindergarten times, to get new perspectives. There’s this thing that for me it was more like how it fits into a lot of different ways to look at the world then a simple feeling or concern. And now it’s completely obvious. I can’t say anything definitively, because it’s literally about how all of life is.