I have become addicted to taking massive dumps and deliberately go out of my way make sure I do it every day.

So I had to make a throwaway for this because who the fucks admits to something like this normally?

Anyway here is some backstory on me, as my username suggests I have the eating disorder bulimia, as well as anorexia. I have been in recovery for 3 months now, which is the nice way of putting binging uncontrollably, and one of the things I am now able to do is go for a poop.

If you didn’t know people who have ana don’t really poop because they don’t eat enough food and their bodies drastically slow digestion in order to try and suck out as much nutrients as possible from what little food you do give it. When I was at my worst I would poop once every two weeks, maybe once a week if I was lucky. So for 2 whole years I took less than a hundred dumps.

Now that I’m kinda recovering I am able to poop again like a normal person. Thing is I have missed going soooooo much that I will now intentionally make sure that every day I take the hugest shit known to mankind. I Go out of my way to eat tons of fibre, 3-5 times the recommended daily amount, and that paired with bingeing upwards of 5000 calories each day means that every morning I tend to need to sit on the toilet for over an hour.

This has become such a huge pleasure for me, and is the only positive thing that is coming from the insane binges that I go on. I never want this to end. I would love to stop bingeing and honestly trading the shitting for having an actual healthy relationship with food would be ideal but god damn I just want to say I love taking a massive shit. feeling like I have birthed triplets every single day brings me a level of joy I cannot even describe.