finally felt the need to share this to a community that can understand me, i have conflicted feelings about all this but i just can’t stop doing it.

alright so a couple months ago i broke my left arm and had it immobilized in a cast. since i’m a lefty (quirky), i’ve been struggling to do a lot of basic things, but for the most part i’ve been managing it well.

all that was until a week after i got the cast, when i needed to take a shit (my shits develop really slowly).

so i shit, but it feels kinda different, and when i reach towards the toilet paper it hits me: i have to wipe with my right hand. this was particularly tricky, since i can’t see what I’m doing.

now, normally not much fecal matter remains on my hairy asshole after i shit, that’s just how i’m built, but this time it’s completely different. there’s a pile of doodoo over there, and when i feel it through the paper i panic and start sweating profusely. i try to clumsily wipe my ass but it’s no use, and i accidentally shove my finger into my shitty hole.

as i frantically try to get it out, i slip on the water i spilled earlier, and combined with the imbalance from my heavy cast, i fall on the ground with my hand still in my anus and it slips in deeper.

i slowly stand up and take my hand out, a glob of shit still stuck to it, and me feeling weirdly pleasured. i wash my hand and start wiping again. but no shit is left, i took it all out. all day i think about this event.


fast forward to today, my cast has been off for about a week yet i have developed a habit to finger my shit-filled tube every time i get the chance to. it feels so good and i get so fucking hard doing it, i could probably chop a brick in half with my vein alone, yet i always feel so guilty afterwards.

yesterday i did it in a public bathroom, and the intense pleasure combined with the rush from being vulnerable and in public pushed me over the edge and i started pumping baby batter everywhere on the stall door. it came out with such force that every rope reverberated against the thin door rhythmically, even splashing slkghtly

kind of like “PRRRRP——-PRRRRRP—–PRRRRRP”

after that i felt so ashamed that i quickly tucked my penis in and ran out. everyone in the bathroom looked at me so confused and disgusted. “what the fuck did you do in there, dipshit?!” a man yelled while i was scurrying out.

that made me feel a little funny, since he looked quite hot, and he didn’t even know i was literally a “dip shit”. haha.

i’m writing this in my car. i really hope some of you can help me make sense of my current predicament, since this shit-pegging fetish is getting out of control, and i do NOT want it to end up like the piss fetish i got 3 years ago. should i just accept it? awaiting your advice. thank you r/shitfetish