I’m truly sorry everyone, but I dont belong here. I’m cishet, I pretended to be LGBT, I tricked myself into thinking it and then kept bein’ the sheep in wolf’s clothing, I wasn’t aware of this, I lied to myself too. I feel excluded, not accepted, I’m seen as boring, normal, the enemy, the one who has it easy, the one who hasn’t got the right to feel wrong since she was born cishet, thus is privileged and has no right of complaining when LGBT folks are getting slaughtered, I feel like I haven’t got the right to complain, and no, I have no right to bitch ’bout this, I’m utterly and deeply fucked. In my mind “They’re excluding you, they’re discriminate cishets, they’re the enemy who rely on lies and feelings, they discriminate who’s right, they’re agitated egomaniacs who believe bullshit, non-binaries rely on feelings alone, ignoring facts, they’re either male or female, penis or vagina, XY or XX, it’s basic biology! Come on, why would you wanna stay with those freaks? They’re ignoring the truth, basic biology and overthrowing us cishets, they need to be fought, to be repressed like they repress us to be killed, to be slaughtered, murdered, raped, they deserve everything they have, let ’em taste their own medicine, they’re exclusionary, they’re fags, they flaunt and inflate normal things to oppress and terrify, shame and harass us normal, good people, they’re an elite group, privileged and protected, and you don’t belong in this exclusionary group. They hate you so you must hate ’em.” It’s unbearable, I feel waves of frustration, hatred, I feel hated and I feel like that’s the right way, like that’s how it’s meant to be. I’m tired of pretending it’s not. I’m your enemy. I don’t belong there, I’m cishet. I won’t give into the monster, I’ll show it that I can support something outside of me, that just because a group doesn’t include me that doesn’t mean that “they’re the enemy and need to be destroyed”. I have to go. Love y’all